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Cause I don't want to be without the links while in KC. Unlike dawningday I can't for the life of me remember them. Generally in order of importance to me cross referenced with what days they update.

http://www.girlgeniusonline.com/comic.php
http://www.somethingpositive.net/
http://www.thedreamlandchronicles.com
http://www.questionablecontent.net/
http://www.gunnerkrigg.com
http://www.twolumps.net/
http://www.daisyowl.com/
http://xkcd.com
http://survivingtheworld.net/
http://www.scarygoround.com/
http://goblinscomic.com/
http://www.lfgcomic.com/

http://www.airshipentertainment.com/mythcomic.php ended but super fun

Last week I learned something about the surgery recovery process that even the doctor didn't tell me. I had to hear it from my stylist. Turns out anesthesia meds make your hair fall out. Not sure at what rate or really anything else but it's good to have a warning.

Because I want to remember this:

Hey love - I know you're having a heck of a time right now, but I wanted to send you a note while I was thinking of it. I really appreciate how freely you share really important insights and lessons about how people can love themselves and one another better. I heard your voice as clear as day in my head when called upon to remind someone that their "yes" is meaningless if they can't own their "no", too. Thank you for being a wonderful example of healthy boundaries. 💛💛💛

Sent to me via PM from a friend

In and amongst all the GI issues I have had this week, we did hear that they accepted our offer and had to do the whole inspection thing. That happened on Tuesday and nothing big or expensive showed up that day, not that we expected it to. A few small things that they agreed to fix. The radon test on the other hand... that came back High and they don't want to have to deal with it because "they won't benefit from it" which we all think is bullshit. Unfortunately I'm this housing market they can pull that. Lots of places are going sight unseen and no inspection at all.

We got them to agree to an in person estimate for remediation since the one they did online came back with a spread of $1850-$3450 which is too wide for my comfort. We'll see what that comes back with. Ultimately, we will end up paying for whatever it is cause, see the current market, we don't have much choice and we really do like the house.

After over 48 hours of no decrease in Sx, vomiting all night Sunday night, and waking up with diarrhea today I figured going in to see someone was a good plan. Urgent Care sent me to Acute and Diagnostic care. They did good and urine tests. Both came back normal. Tomorrow I get a CT with contrast. Joy. That means right and tomorrow morning I get Prednisone...

Woke up this morning at 5am with my brain in a hamster wheel. This means I got less than 4 hours of sleep. Last night my brain was in a hamster wheel too. We saw a house we want to put an offer on. There are so many more moving parts when you are buying a house and already own one. It's a little terrifying. But the place is lovely and just about perfect for what we need. It's also located on Sunny Lane. How perfect is that for me?!?

What a fucking pain. I'm sure everyone thinks that of their physical therapy journey. Finding a therapist who can work with EDS and not exacerbate it is a huge challenge. Then when you do find someone the process itself is like stretching an old rubber band. If you do it carefully and warm up slowly you're okay. If you go to hard or too fast; snap, flare, start over next week. The thing is, I never really know how old the rubber band is today.

We are prepping for finding a new place with less stairs and less maintenance and hopefully less noise. The past year has been hell on my hypervigilance issues. How does one figure out what you won't need for the unknown future? Its making me a little nuts.

I also started back to work a the beginning of June. I am loving it really. The people I work with are lovely. Its a small team but we are all dedicated to making it work. I work 18 hours a week. After 15 months of being unemployed and stressed beyond belief, getting used to working again has been difficult. My hours are offset by one hour earlier from my previous schedule and that is proving harder to adapt to than I expected.

The work transition on its own would be hard enough but having to pack up house while physically and mentally exhausted? Yeah. No bueno. Monday and Tuesday are my see the doctor and the physical therapist days so its not like I have those as down days to get things done.

Chronic illness affects far more of my life than I like to admit. *sigh*

This is something She gave me a long time ago. Its kinda like a primer for applying the PoP Love to one's self.

Words from Aphrodite:
You are Worthy
You are Worth It
You Deserve It

How I have interpreted these words over the years:
-You are Worthy. You were born. You exist. Therefore you Are Worthy. Your worthiness is not tied to your appearance, your acceptability, or your productivity. You Are and therefore you Are Worthy.
-You are Worth It. All of the work and effort it takes to become the best you you can be is Worth It. Every second of time it takes to get to know you and be in healthy relationship with you is Worth It. Know it. Act like it. That belief will translate itself throughout the rest of your life.
-You Deserve It. Believe that too. But it means you have to act and be deserving. Don't confuse it with entitled. Those who are deserving have worked hard to get there.

I got the information on the 3rd that my cousin in Dallas had passed. According to my mom they were going to be planning the funeral sometime in the next week. We drove to KC on the 4th. The 5th was supposed to be going to Oceans of Fun but the Honey had been having sinus trouble so rather than go there we agreed to sleep in and go to a pool complex in Independence instead since it cost all of $9 to get in and still had the lazy river he was looking forward to. Sleeping in happened. My back sized up after breakfast so I laid down with an ice pack to rest.

I woke to a text from my mom about the funeral being on the 7th and it was too soon and too far and it didn't make sense to try to go. I called her to find out how she really felt and bullied her into admitting that she really did want to go but wasn't confident that she would be able to make it on her own. It ended up being the Honey, Sis, my mom, and me all in a rental car driving from KC to Dallas. 939 miles one way from Minneapolis to Dallas. 5 days total. I met family I haven't seen since I was very small. Overall it was a good visit.

2 days after I got home I got a message that a dear friend, willowoak, had collapsed on the way out of work and they were unable to revive her. She had no will and no documents detailing what do with her and her things. The Honey and I will be working on that soon. You just never know what is gonna happen. One day you could think you are fine and the next you could have a previously unknown cancerous ovarian cyst burst and the trauma of it just might stop your heart.

Ever since then we have been dealing with her effects and preparing for the memorial. It is set for this coming Saturday. Its weird cause I probably spent more time with her over the past 10 years than anyone else in our trad and now I feel a bit adrift. We will all manage but it has definitely rocked the community here. #fuckcancer