hypatia42

Recovery is strange. I don't like, but recognize the necessity of, opiates. Set myself a timer. Take them regularly. Avoid break-thru pain. Makes pain management much easier. However I am constantly feeling the not fun side effects of drunk all of the time. Nausea, head spinning, inability to concentrate or focus, general loss of time. It all sucks.

I have "some" staples in my ankle right now. Still don't know if they will be able to give me my hardware back but the call is in to the dr, all prayers that this is easy and happens quickly are welcome. I'm excited to see the xrays of the bone at my check up next week. Everyday it gets easier to walk, really the hardest part about walking is the staples rubbing on the boot.

Both of the spice girls are cuddling with me and holding me down a lot since I got home. They are sweet little things.

I feel like I want to get things done but really I don't have the energy. Hell, I was gonna get caught up on Arrow but keeping my attention for long enough to watch an entire episode seems challenging. Usually reading can hold my brain when nothing else can and it just isn't right now. *see opiates

Buying clothing online is a royal PITA. I hear so many people talking about how nice it is. It rarely works well for me. Even paying for custom fitting it is just a cluster ***k. Coat and three shirts going back. At least the coat will be coming back in the right size without extra shipping costs. Grr.

Once I'm off of opiates I am going to have to hit the weight loss journey hard core. I do not like that the last three years/three surgeries have seen my weight rise 30 lbs. Just when I recover enough to really get going again I feel like I get knocked back down. I know that everything I did this year to get back in shape will make it that much easier to recover from the latest surgery. I also know that I am going to need a kick in the pants. How to do that in a boot is my current question...