Continuation of moodiness

[hypatia42]

PSA: crying at work is not a good plan. I spent $20 on make-up today just so I could come back from lunch and not look like a wreck. It worked. I look great.

I need to take a good look into myself and my spiritual side and see whats going on. In working with air, there was lots of talking, disagreements, and communication work throughs. I wonder if this moodiness isn't part of the firey shit I've got going on. I know I've been more physically active. Ill as all get out a bit ago, I'm sure that worked a bunch of crap out of my system. Burned to be precise. I can't remember the last time I've had a temp of 103...

I've upheld my vow to dig into what I need to do to take care of myself and found part of the answer. It is going to take courage and drive and passion. Fear is based on the unknown.

Aphrodite says, "Walk the talk dearie. You keep saying that not knowing the outcome is no reason not to try something, you never know, it might be better. The fact that it might also be worse is no reason to not try. If you've decided that where you are is not where you want to be then move to change it. Otherwise you are stagnating and that"s just not like you."

I'm gonna try sitting with this. See if I can really tell where the moodiness is coming from. I know part of it is my body is done with not being taken care of and my job is a huge part of that. Moving forward. I can do this.

Comments

[theladyshannon.livejournal.com]

I have noticed that when one eliminate others' dramas from one's life, and start to move through one's own issues, it leaves room for the more serious stuff under it to bubble up to get attention.

[hypatia42.livejournal.com]

Yes. Agreed. I have been working through a lot of stuff. Feels like I have been for years. Maybe that's how it will always be so long as I'm willing to keep working.

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I love you, and am thinking of you.

[hypatia42.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I hope all is going well with your preparations.

[ludditeauthor.livejournal.com]

You're in my thoughts. If you need a voice and not just to click an enter button, you are always welcome to call.