Missing in my life
Sep. 26th, 2016 01:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hypatia42For years now I haven't haad another partner here in the twin cities. I've had many long distance partners. 2 for over 10 years now, one on each coast. But I remember what it was like to have someone close by, someone who could keep me company, and who I could see on a regular basis. I miss my PIC terribly.
Recently I have begun developing a relationship with Mr. Bee. His wife, the reason we didn't do this years ago, is out of the picture regarding who he can and cannot have relationships with. He lives in Madison. Its a 4 hour drive. Not 24 hours but its nothing to sneeze at. I cannot just go over and see him. While I am very glad of this new relationship, I miss my PIC. Having this new relationship in my life has only made that so much more clear.
I don't know if I would feel better about this if Mr. Bee were closer. I do know that moving to Portland where PIC lives is not in the cards. I haven't had any luck finding anyone here. It makes me kinda angry at Ash all over again. More at the situation I guess. He did what he needed to do for himself.
I miss my PIC being in my life.
Recently I have begun developing a relationship with Mr. Bee. His wife, the reason we didn't do this years ago, is out of the picture regarding who he can and cannot have relationships with. He lives in Madison. Its a 4 hour drive. Not 24 hours but its nothing to sneeze at. I cannot just go over and see him. While I am very glad of this new relationship, I miss my PIC. Having this new relationship in my life has only made that so much more clear.
I don't know if I would feel better about this if Mr. Bee were closer. I do know that moving to Portland where PIC lives is not in the cards. I haven't had any luck finding anyone here. It makes me kinda angry at Ash all over again. More at the situation I guess. He did what he needed to do for himself.
I miss my PIC being in my life.