Creating life
May. 6th, 2013 11:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I never gave birth to a human. I never will. In the past month I have been in labor pains to birth a space of wellness, my cat passed from this world, planning for B*FG began in earnest, my closing ritual happened, planning for two other major rites of passage for me kicked up, completed Cranio 1 in the process of becoming certified, and I completed a memorial walk raising $295 for the Animal Humane Society in honor of Kitty Cat.
I can't really fathom being more busy and "on" all the time without needing to be institutionalized. My hand is letting me know that it is objecting to the amount of activity it is being used for. Trying to eat better and make sure I get enough sleep. Doing what I can to take care of myself.
I finally got to sob all night about Kitty Cat. Feeling more at peace after the Walk for Animals. The Honey was home during the day and noticed how empty it feels here. I laughed in his face and he realized I had to deal with being alone in the house for a week while he was busy in Denver. I have Never lived alone. I have always had my girl at least. I think he is ready to find other animals to have around. I'm not sure about me.
Torby is officially M's cat. She is much happier over there. We want to get her a check up and current on her shots but...yeah. She's not a young thing anymore either. 12 I think. Still feisty tho.
Things are falling through the cracks, getting forgotten, picked up again, and trying to move forward in faith that things will get done as they may. I need a pamper type of activity soon. My hair is too dark, maybe I can get it lightened as a way to lighten my frame of mind.
I can't really fathom being more busy and "on" all the time without needing to be institutionalized. My hand is letting me know that it is objecting to the amount of activity it is being used for. Trying to eat better and make sure I get enough sleep. Doing what I can to take care of myself.
I finally got to sob all night about Kitty Cat. Feeling more at peace after the Walk for Animals. The Honey was home during the day and noticed how empty it feels here. I laughed in his face and he realized I had to deal with being alone in the house for a week while he was busy in Denver. I have Never lived alone. I have always had my girl at least. I think he is ready to find other animals to have around. I'm not sure about me.
Torby is officially M's cat. She is much happier over there. We want to get her a check up and current on her shots but...yeah. She's not a young thing anymore either. 12 I think. Still feisty tho.
Things are falling through the cracks, getting forgotten, picked up again, and trying to move forward in faith that things will get done as they may. I need a pamper type of activity soon. My hair is too dark, maybe I can get it lightened as a way to lighten my frame of mind.