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hypatia42the last 6 months have been hell for my body in multiple ways. *see surgery I have gained weight in strange places, my body has changed shape, I'm still not comfortable wearing tight pants because of how they pull on my abdomen, and my core strength is not back to what I would really like it to be.
*sigh* The worst/most irritating thing that has come of this is that I need new bras. I don't have issues with clothing sizes. I don't feel terrible about myself if I go up or down a size or even three. I buy clothes that fit and look good on my and go about my day. Not so with bras. I have more problems finding bras and subsequently shirts that fit because of my bust size that it drives me absolutely batty.
I discovered I cannot let the letter go. I wonder if they have done with bra sizes what they did with clothing sizes and made them "vanity sizes" to make small women feel better about themselves. I wonder if this is the cause of the blasted rib issue I have going on in my midscapular region.
No amount of people telling me that they are lovely is helping me deal with that fucking letter. Cause then I am left thinking things like, they only want me around because I have a nice rack. Which is really not helping.
I need to loose the weight I gained because of this health issue and resulting surgery. I will be fine. The letter will not get the best of me. Right now I am in "ugh" mode tho. Don't mind me.
*sigh* The worst/most irritating thing that has come of this is that I need new bras. I don't have issues with clothing sizes. I don't feel terrible about myself if I go up or down a size or even three. I buy clothes that fit and look good on my and go about my day. Not so with bras. I have more problems finding bras and subsequently shirts that fit because of my bust size that it drives me absolutely batty.
I discovered I cannot let the letter go. I wonder if they have done with bra sizes what they did with clothing sizes and made them "vanity sizes" to make small women feel better about themselves. I wonder if this is the cause of the blasted rib issue I have going on in my midscapular region.
No amount of people telling me that they are lovely is helping me deal with that fucking letter. Cause then I am left thinking things like, they only want me around because I have a nice rack. Which is really not helping.
I need to loose the weight I gained because of this health issue and resulting surgery. I will be fine. The letter will not get the best of me. Right now I am in "ugh" mode tho. Don't mind me.