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Oct. 23rd, 2012 01:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hypatia42thoughts keep bubbling up while I am driving. Thus the lack of posting here I think.
Not sure Shirtless is going to last. As selfish as this sounds, I am not interested in being sexual with someone that doesn't like being touched.
In other news, I am cleared to be sexual again. Until the surgery anyway. Crampbark tincture has gotten the worst of the cramping under control so it is possible I might feel up to being sexual at some point in the not too distant future. Long about the time that surgery is scheduled...
I am having a uterine eviction sometime in November I think. Outpatient laproscopic surgery. Removal of the body of the uterus but leaving the cervix and ovaries. No vaginal incision. ~2 week recovery time.
This last is what I have been doing the majority of my thinking about in the past few weeks. Well, other than Shirtless and touch and how strange I feel when it is so hard to find compatible people. Honestly my uterus and I are both on board for this. We have irreconcilable differences. Its been trying to cut its way out of my body for a while now. I'm just gonna give it a helping hand. Thing is, I feel like there ought to be someone there who can help birth that piece of death. Giving birth removes a life from a uterus, be it vaginal or surgical. I will be surgically giving birth to my uterus and birthing the death of that part of my life. Yes, I will want to have a ritual once that is done. I have asked the Dr if I can have the medical waste and she said I will have to talk to the hospital. Feels like the difference I am looking at is there is a person there at the birth to help the mother through the process and there is a ritual to honor the life given after the birth process is over. Two separate events with two different purposes.
Not sure Shirtless is going to last. As selfish as this sounds, I am not interested in being sexual with someone that doesn't like being touched.
In other news, I am cleared to be sexual again. Until the surgery anyway. Crampbark tincture has gotten the worst of the cramping under control so it is possible I might feel up to being sexual at some point in the not too distant future. Long about the time that surgery is scheduled...
I am having a uterine eviction sometime in November I think. Outpatient laproscopic surgery. Removal of the body of the uterus but leaving the cervix and ovaries. No vaginal incision. ~2 week recovery time.
This last is what I have been doing the majority of my thinking about in the past few weeks. Well, other than Shirtless and touch and how strange I feel when it is so hard to find compatible people. Honestly my uterus and I are both on board for this. We have irreconcilable differences. Its been trying to cut its way out of my body for a while now. I'm just gonna give it a helping hand. Thing is, I feel like there ought to be someone there who can help birth that piece of death. Giving birth removes a life from a uterus, be it vaginal or surgical. I will be surgically giving birth to my uterus and birthing the death of that part of my life. Yes, I will want to have a ritual once that is done. I have asked the Dr if I can have the medical waste and she said I will have to talk to the hospital. Feels like the difference I am looking at is there is a person there at the birth to help the mother through the process and there is a ritual to honor the life given after the birth process is over. Two separate events with two different purposes.