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hypatia42Packing woes. I'm looking at the things I need to bring to FSG and half of it is costuming. I'm not sure how this is going to work. The amount of clothing required for a clothing optional event is ironic.
In other news, I have been looking at pictures of the life that diverged from mine 5ish years ago. Oh the things that could have been. Timing sucks and then you move on with life. Cursed with being able to see potentials and the reality behind the masks is an interesting, if bittersweet, way to live life.
5 years ago I was on my way to FSG for the first time. Or would that be four? I think this will be my 5th one so maybe four years? Time is mutable. Go with it. I had just received a call from a beloved telling me that all was well despite the scare and wishing me well for my trip. I would meet a lover in less than a day. Life changed. Then changed again several weeks later. Then again several months later. Years later I was offered something I wanted and turned it down because I have rules about honesty. No blame, no condemnation, some grief and sadness.
The world turns and people change. Here I am again, back at the beginning of my spiral, one level up from growth and change, traveling to FSG without a partner to see what else I can do to grow and change and be who I need to be before I need to be it so I can learn the next lesson and make sure my spiral keeps going up. I don't fancy being a record stuck in the same groove skipping back and back and back. That's just not my style.
So I pack. and I do laundry. and I wonder what else will change and where I will go.
In other news, I have been looking at pictures of the life that diverged from mine 5ish years ago. Oh the things that could have been. Timing sucks and then you move on with life. Cursed with being able to see potentials and the reality behind the masks is an interesting, if bittersweet, way to live life.
5 years ago I was on my way to FSG for the first time. Or would that be four? I think this will be my 5th one so maybe four years? Time is mutable. Go with it. I had just received a call from a beloved telling me that all was well despite the scare and wishing me well for my trip. I would meet a lover in less than a day. Life changed. Then changed again several weeks later. Then again several months later. Years later I was offered something I wanted and turned it down because I have rules about honesty. No blame, no condemnation, some grief and sadness.
The world turns and people change. Here I am again, back at the beginning of my spiral, one level up from growth and change, traveling to FSG without a partner to see what else I can do to grow and change and be who I need to be before I need to be it so I can learn the next lesson and make sure my spiral keeps going up. I don't fancy being a record stuck in the same groove skipping back and back and back. That's just not my style.
So I pack. and I do laundry. and I wonder what else will change and where I will go.