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Mar. 30th, 2008 01:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hypatia42Life and struggles are getting much easier to deal with sanely and rationally with the sun coming back. Keeping busy this weekend has helped. The Honey being online and available to chat has helped. Today beings the massive amounts of study time crammed into two weeks.
This time last tri I was an emotional wreck,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
treesong was here in town, the Honey was gone in CO, I was working 3-4 days a week, and lots of studying was happening. I don't think I was taking as good a care of myself then as I am now. I'm down to one day a week for work, diet is better I think. I'm not forcing the "A grade" issue. Its really not a competition, it is about learning the material. Still missing the Honey but I'm getting better about that.
Honestly its the late at night times that I just don't seem to be able to handle well. We've kinda worked out a system for this, he'll call me and we go to bed together. It helps but is not ideal. Company is what I really want. Someone who wants to spend time with me. I miss watching cartoons, I miss watching fun video games, I miss cooking for more than one, I want someone willing to come here to my home. You know, company. Feels like everyone is so busy living their own lives they can't stop to play. So yeah, late nights are hard. I stay up later than I should because going to bed just sounds lonely.
I really don't know what I am going to do with the Honey's cat. She may have to become an outdoor cat until he gets back.
In two weeks this tri will be over. I will then have two weeks to play around and relax. Going to drive down to KC. The likelihood that I'll be at the new Joplin renfest is very high. I will be there for at least a week though. I want to see people! I want to spend time with all my lovelies. And I get to see my wife. Which rocks cause she's awesome.
This time last tri I was an emotional wreck,
treesong was here in town, the Honey was gone in CO, I was working 3-4 days a week, and lots of studying was happening. I don't think I was taking as good a care of myself then as I am now. I'm down to one day a week for work, diet is better I think. I'm not forcing the "A grade" issue. Its really not a competition, it is about learning the material. Still missing the Honey but I'm getting better about that. Honestly its the late at night times that I just don't seem to be able to handle well. We've kinda worked out a system for this, he'll call me and we go to bed together. It helps but is not ideal. Company is what I really want. Someone who wants to spend time with me. I miss watching cartoons, I miss watching fun video games, I miss cooking for more than one, I want someone willing to come here to my home. You know, company. Feels like everyone is so busy living their own lives they can't stop to play. So yeah, late nights are hard. I stay up later than I should because going to bed just sounds lonely.
I really don't know what I am going to do with the Honey's cat. She may have to become an outdoor cat until he gets back.
In two weeks this tri will be over. I will then have two weeks to play around and relax. Going to drive down to KC. The likelihood that I'll be at the new Joplin renfest is very high. I will be there for at least a week though. I want to see people! I want to spend time with all my lovelies. And I get to see my wife. Which rocks cause she's awesome.