Coping and Dealing

[hypatia42]

I've been sitting on some emails that I need to write, some responses that need to be written and sent, and some other stuff that I need to deal with(like laundry). I don't particularly want to write the emails or actually deal with the responses because they scare me. There is a lot of uncertain ground in front of those communications. I am uncertain enough in my state of internal chaos that I really don't particularly want to deal with external uncertainty. I think this is me admitting that it can't wait until August to be dealt with though.

Woke in fairly extreme pain this morning. Like my whole left side from the hip down was trying to be squished into a smaller mold than it came out of. I took ibuprofen and rolled onto the heating pad and tried to get it to relax. I have taken more ibuprofen in the past week than in the past 2 months. This is a bad sign. Probably means I need a *good* massage. I haven't had one since school started. I also don't have time in the next week unless I am able to get one today. Not a good prognosis.

I really don't know what else to do.