Missing in my life

For years now I haven't haad another partner here in the twin cities. I've had many long distance partners. 2 for over 10 years now, one on each coast. But I remember what it was like to have someone close by, someone who could keep me company, and who I could see on a regular basis. I miss my PIC terribly.

Recently I have begun developing a relationship with Mr. Bee. His wife, the reason we didn't do this years ago, is out of the picture regarding who he can and cannot have relationships with. He lives in Madison. Its a 4 hour drive. Not 24 hours but its nothing to sneeze at. I cannot just go over and see him. While I am very glad of this new relationship, I miss my PIC. Having this new relationship in my life has only made that so much more clear.

I don't know if I would feel better about this if Mr. Bee were closer. I do know that moving to Portland where PIC lives is not in the cards. I haven't had any luck finding anyone here. It makes me kinda angry at Ash all over again. More at the situation I guess. He did what he needed to do for himself.

I miss my PIC being in my life.

Copied from Facebook because I need to remember...

I posted a meme because I need a pick up every now and again just like anybody.

"Stolen from many, bc why not?

Let's build each other up today!! Put this on your status to see what people love about you. <3
I love your __________."

Answers:
-Awesomeness
-Intelligence
-Muchness
-Glitter, but especially your hugs
-Aura. You have a presence around you that is awesome.
-Silly
-Boldness (this from someone who met me at FG. I need to remember that I make an impression)
-Honesty
-Your energy, your heart, your smile. <3 (this from Doc because of course it is)
-Confidence
-Twinkling eyes
-Your radiance/inner glow. (waves to evilbunny)
-Your heart. (H/t welshbard)
-Your priestessing skill, your affinity for glitter, and your wildness.
-Smile and candor. (love from Devon. I have benefited from her candor at times too)
-I love your fearlessness. (people really see me this way??)
-The fact that you are a brigadier general of the Auntie Brigade. (gwisteria I love you)
-Lovingness
-Fearlessness ( I guess they do...)
-Photographic eye ( unexpected but insightful from sabrinamari
-Your willingness and excitement to learn. Your laugh. Your love of family and tribe.
-Fairy heart...fierce and free
-How you exude love
-Your love of loving

Two stood out with comments:
apocalypticbob said,
-Warm glow. Walking around with you is like following a dancing ember
--Can I change my answer to this? Because wow, nailed it. (doc)
--Dang. Yes. triadruid
--*blush* me

berkie said,
-I love your love. How all encompassing and warm and compassionate your love is. How it makes people see the the best in themselves and in turn make them want to be better, more. Your love is magic.
--I love you. More than words. Thank you for being in my life. me

Your love is Magic. *deep breath*