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Oct. 30th, 2012 07:32 amAwake and thinking for far too long given that I have to be functional later. Luckily I will probably be able to go back to sleep in a bit.
Thinky thoughts. Not really sure what to do with them. One part ritual, one part sex, one part ending of fertility. Trying to redefine what fertility means in my head to edit out baby making, that is where the ritual part comes in. I think the ritual involves me giving that ability to someone else. I think.
Read an article about the difference between pro-life and anti-abortion and how one =/= the other. I wish I could share it with Donna in a way that she would hear it. Ah well. The newer generations are less hung up about things like this. The older ones will pass on the torch of taking care of the country and things will balance out.
Carrying funerary herbs again. Preparing my mind for RoP. Going through all of the steps of preparing a body(minus the formaldehyde). Went over to the hospital yesterday to make sure they got the message about not immediately destroying my uterus after they take it out.![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
gwisteria was amazing in calling them and not getting off of the phone until she convinced them they had to give it to me and knew what I needed to do to make that happen. All will be well. I want to plant an apple tree over it. Not sure how that is going to work out but that is the thought.
Trying to stay present with myself and just go with the flow. I guess part of that today is watching the sun come up.
Thinky thoughts. Not really sure what to do with them. One part ritual, one part sex, one part ending of fertility. Trying to redefine what fertility means in my head to edit out baby making, that is where the ritual part comes in. I think the ritual involves me giving that ability to someone else. I think.
Read an article about the difference between pro-life and anti-abortion and how one =/= the other. I wish I could share it with Donna in a way that she would hear it. Ah well. The newer generations are less hung up about things like this. The older ones will pass on the torch of taking care of the country and things will balance out.
Carrying funerary herbs again. Preparing my mind for RoP. Going through all of the steps of preparing a body(minus the formaldehyde). Went over to the hospital yesterday to make sure they got the message about not immediately destroying my uterus after they take it out.
gwisteria was amazing in calling them and not getting off of the phone until she convinced them they had to give it to me and knew what I needed to do to make that happen. All will be well. I want to plant an apple tree over it. Not sure how that is going to work out but that is the thought.Trying to stay present with myself and just go with the flow. I guess part of that today is watching the sun come up.