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Way over did it yesterday. I found myself feeling like I was trying to keep up with the Honey all day long. I'm hoping than rest time can be had in smaller bits than previously experienced. Large amounts of rest will not be possible til Sunday at this point.
Still, the progress made in potential organization here in the house was good. Ritual stuff is out of boxes and on a shelf for the first time in about a month. The office feels kinda blocked off atm but at least the computer is marginally functional(I can get on the internet). I think it feels more open in here now. Moved furniture around and added a bookshelf. One other bookshelf needs to be emptied of unimportant things and refilled with important things. Pictures up on the walls would be nice too.
It is remarkable how many children I have in my life. Little Caesar was here Sunday I think. Rollin his way around the house. The Honey is good with kids. They tend to treat him like a jungle gym. They still respect him though so that's good. Dora is mind numbing. Not nearly so bad as other kids programming for sure but wow.
I get a massage today. Going in to work to get that taken care of. Last Wed my chair did a kamikaze maneuver and broke in half throwing me to the ground. Sounds wonderfully humorous yes. I lay on the ground for a good 5 minutes making sure that I wouldn't damage anything further by getting up. Last week I didn't do much massage post murder attempt. This week I am covered in bruises and alternately really sore. So I'm going in. Wanna see if getting a bit of gentle work will help tomorrow be easier to get through without damage.
Running errands all afternoon today. Hoping to pick up a lovely little ceramic pot to put my toy fund in. Seems silly to call the pot and ink fund since come June it won't be for ink any longer. I think after that it'll be for a good bike. So anyway, toy pot. Play pot? Haven't really landed on a term yet. I also need to pick up a replacement water bottle. I'd prefer one with a straw but those seem to have leaking problems. Not sure how I really feel about getting one of the metal ones. Wanna stop by and talk to G and M. Headed over St.Ang's tonight to get ritual stuff. Prolly won't be able to get a haircut. I should go tanning. Speaking of that I should call them and see if I can get in.
I have discovered that I am capable of forgiving if I believe that the person won't do it again. Forgiveness is wrapped up in trust for me. I don't know how to untangle them. I have been trying to get someone to draw for me for a while. It keeps getting pushed back for one reason or another. I've not tried to do direct communication because this is an issue that I feel I'm too close to to get an honest read for. Still, I keep getting the feeling that I'm rushing this process. One step at a time, one layer at a time. I know I wanna be done but rushing isn't going to help and only adds stress.
Still, the progress made in potential organization here in the house was good. Ritual stuff is out of boxes and on a shelf for the first time in about a month. The office feels kinda blocked off atm but at least the computer is marginally functional(I can get on the internet). I think it feels more open in here now. Moved furniture around and added a bookshelf. One other bookshelf needs to be emptied of unimportant things and refilled with important things. Pictures up on the walls would be nice too.
It is remarkable how many children I have in my life. Little Caesar was here Sunday I think. Rollin his way around the house. The Honey is good with kids. They tend to treat him like a jungle gym. They still respect him though so that's good. Dora is mind numbing. Not nearly so bad as other kids programming for sure but wow.
I get a massage today. Going in to work to get that taken care of. Last Wed my chair did a kamikaze maneuver and broke in half throwing me to the ground. Sounds wonderfully humorous yes. I lay on the ground for a good 5 minutes making sure that I wouldn't damage anything further by getting up. Last week I didn't do much massage post murder attempt. This week I am covered in bruises and alternately really sore. So I'm going in. Wanna see if getting a bit of gentle work will help tomorrow be easier to get through without damage.
Running errands all afternoon today. Hoping to pick up a lovely little ceramic pot to put my toy fund in. Seems silly to call the pot and ink fund since come June it won't be for ink any longer. I think after that it'll be for a good bike. So anyway, toy pot. Play pot? Haven't really landed on a term yet. I also need to pick up a replacement water bottle. I'd prefer one with a straw but those seem to have leaking problems. Not sure how I really feel about getting one of the metal ones. Wanna stop by and talk to G and M. Headed over St.Ang's tonight to get ritual stuff. Prolly won't be able to get a haircut. I should go tanning. Speaking of that I should call them and see if I can get in.
I have discovered that I am capable of forgiving if I believe that the person won't do it again. Forgiveness is wrapped up in trust for me. I don't know how to untangle them. I have been trying to get someone to draw for me for a while. It keeps getting pushed back for one reason or another. I've not tried to do direct communication because this is an issue that I feel I'm too close to to get an honest read for. Still, I keep getting the feeling that I'm rushing this process. One step at a time, one layer at a time. I know I wanna be done but rushing isn't going to help and only adds stress.