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lovika27 asked me, while we were at the pub last night, if I had a date tonight. That simple question made me think about how much I would have liked to have a date tonight. The rest of the evening was melancholy.

I'm very tired. I haven't had any caffeine in about a week. I will likely change that today. I am so beat. Body still hurts and mind is worn out. I'm a little worried about how much I've been wanting to sleep lately. Exhausted at 10 last night after a two hour nap yesterday afternoon? I just don't know.

Empath moment; Ever been around a person that all you can get from them is their pain? It is hard to feel that and not reach out. It is hard for them to be functional with anyone reaching out. I feel very motherly/therapist like towards this person. This is the opposite of what this person wants me to feel... Not sure what to do about this situation other than continue communicating.

Happy Spring

I've had interesting offers this week. I could have been doing three different things tonight, may still do another, it depends. Tomorrow I have work and some social potential afterwards. Sat I have at least three different offers for things going on.

I talked to a gal today that also feels a bit in limbo for the moment, while we are in school. It is transformative and powerful but lots of life is put on hold because it is such an intense program. I feel for her. She is in a very hard place to be in. Faced with her choices, practical life and family vs getting needs met, I'm not sure how I would have handled things. I can't judge cause I am so not in that situation. I can sure feel for her though.

The tiny faerie that rests in my heart needs to be fed. She's been sleeping in her nest for a long time. She needs out for a while. Spring is here. The pixies wanna come out an play too. They're more trouble than she is though. Full of child-like wonder and joy in the world. You'd enjoy her company. You wouldn't understand her company, nor why you enjoyed it, but you would.

I'd like to nap now. :) Naps are nice.