I am enough
Nov. 22nd, 2010 03:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hypatia42Several people I know posted a link to a CNN article. http://edition.cnn.com/2010/LIVING/11/01/give.up.perfection/index.html?iref=obinsite
It got me thinking. Like I do. I know, dangerous. And really, it distracts me from my list. But maybe today I need to be distracted from the list that will never end, never stop having things added to it. So I sit. And I think. About a time a while ago when I deliberately thought about these things.
I wrote a phrase in my journal a long time ago after a conversation I had with other people who had been thinking. "The search for perfection prevents us from seeing beauty and value in things that are not perfect." Imagine being able to truly appreciate the value of something that everyone else sees as broken. Imagine the impact on a person who sees themselves as flawed to have another look on them with awe. Many times it is scary, they will deny they have value in other's eyes, that person is obviously wrong or lying to them, it goes past all the things that they keep between them and happiness, it leaves them vulnerable.
I think I finally understand why people find me intimidating. People generally don't like being vulnerable. I revel in being that open. I don't mean to cause you problems by valuing you the way I do. I just want everyone to know how much they mean to me. I don't want to miss an opportunity.
Perfection is only attainable in the moment. It is fleeting, ephemeral. Something to be appreciated as you pass it by. Like the dawn.
It got me thinking. Like I do. I know, dangerous. And really, it distracts me from my list. But maybe today I need to be distracted from the list that will never end, never stop having things added to it. So I sit. And I think. About a time a while ago when I deliberately thought about these things.
I wrote a phrase in my journal a long time ago after a conversation I had with other people who had been thinking. "The search for perfection prevents us from seeing beauty and value in things that are not perfect." Imagine being able to truly appreciate the value of something that everyone else sees as broken. Imagine the impact on a person who sees themselves as flawed to have another look on them with awe. Many times it is scary, they will deny they have value in other's eyes, that person is obviously wrong or lying to them, it goes past all the things that they keep between them and happiness, it leaves them vulnerable.
I think I finally understand why people find me intimidating. People generally don't like being vulnerable. I revel in being that open. I don't mean to cause you problems by valuing you the way I do. I just want everyone to know how much they mean to me. I don't want to miss an opportunity.
Perfection is only attainable in the moment. It is fleeting, ephemeral. Something to be appreciated as you pass it by. Like the dawn.
