Emotional state: broken?

I have once again hit the place of no fucks left to give. I don't know if I am getting to this place faster or if I hadn't really recovered from the previous one a couple of years back. I am not as numb as I was then but I do know that I am not functioning with a full set of emotions. I am all into get it done mode. I know I am forgetting things. I can't keep up with it all and even the most organized person is gonna lose stuff in this situation.

I am concerned that I will need to end my lease and bring my business back home. I don't really wanna do it but it's $440 back in the budget that I could really use elsewhere. I have not had nay luck so far in getting reliable subleasers and that is what would make the situation tenable. I really need a subleaser and right now I don't have any of the *extra spoons it requires to acquire one(*see above).

I sat down to my computer to change my Facebook profile pic for May the 4th and tears started rolling down my face. Dunno why. Just because all the excess I can't keep in or let out any other way started leaking out?

In other news, the reason I haven't been journaling as much is the app I used to journal from my phone is broken now and it doesn't seem to be supported or updating any longer. I don't sit in front of my computer much. Moreso lately with all the things needing to be dealt with but another option needs to be assessed for the future.