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Candle making day
Jan. 26th, 2015 12:16 amSo today I made candles with a bit of help and a lot of stubborn. 12 hours I was on my feet. In this instance stubborn might be equated with stupid. W and Pixie child helped.
I have three totes of candle making supplies. One for tools, one for wax, and one that has both. It is serious tetris skills to get it all to fit. I cannot carry them any longer. This is not a hobby that I can do by myself. Everyone knows I do it and gives me their leftover wax. But no one wants to help make it into not leftover wax. Its is physically hard on me.
I looked at W at one point and asked her, "everyone else is content to buy candles. Why is this so important to me?"
W says, "Because you are the light."
Now this is something that she has been saying to me for years because I said something like it a long long time ago. I think at the time she was appalled but now it just is the way it is. I'm a torch. Ok. But dammit, it is easier to be that when there are more around to light the way with me. It is bloody tiring. Not to mention those people who think stubbing their toes in the darkness is tres cool and that I am a simpering idiot for choosing paganism lite. Can't hack the darkness. *eyeroll*
I think I am tired. We are coming up on the hardest time of year for me. Imbolc to Ostara is always the darkest time. Snowy, cloudy, wet, and cold. I will survive. I always do. But going into it already spent is non-ideal. Luckily my Imbolc present will be to get my freedom from teh boot.
BOOT!
I have three totes of candle making supplies. One for tools, one for wax, and one that has both. It is serious tetris skills to get it all to fit. I cannot carry them any longer. This is not a hobby that I can do by myself. Everyone knows I do it and gives me their leftover wax. But no one wants to help make it into not leftover wax. Its is physically hard on me.
I looked at W at one point and asked her, "everyone else is content to buy candles. Why is this so important to me?"
W says, "Because you are the light."
Now this is something that she has been saying to me for years because I said something like it a long long time ago. I think at the time she was appalled but now it just is the way it is. I'm a torch. Ok. But dammit, it is easier to be that when there are more around to light the way with me. It is bloody tiring. Not to mention those people who think stubbing their toes in the darkness is tres cool and that I am a simpering idiot for choosing paganism lite. Can't hack the darkness. *eyeroll*
I think I am tired. We are coming up on the hardest time of year for me. Imbolc to Ostara is always the darkest time. Snowy, cloudy, wet, and cold. I will survive. I always do. But going into it already spent is non-ideal. Luckily my Imbolc present will be to get my freedom from teh boot.
BOOT!