(no subject)

not dealing particularly well with the real world right now. There is a lot of depression, sadness, anger, and hate floating around. I would love to blame this on the super moon but really I think people can be shitty no matter what is going on in the heavens.

I discovered a couple of days ago why I haven't pursued TopGun any harder. I really don't have the time or energy to court people who don't communicate their wants and needs. He is so closed up out of so many years of habit that I don't even know where to begin and I just don't have the time or energy.

That same day I discovered that L will be at the house warming/fairy godmothering. Cue deep breathing and narrowly missing a panic attack. I'm sure it will be fine but rewiring my brain isn't an easy task. Some of the rewiring has just begun this summer. I am loved and supported. I know that one of the reasons that they picked the day they did for this event was that I could be there. I can do this for them.

Walking away from the internet now. Going outside is possibly stupid due to allergens that have already canceled one client this week. Maybe the mall? I need to get moving I think.