family

after an email from my half-aunt I am left feeling bereft of my niece and wondering if I will be 75 when I finally get the chance to reconnect with her. How interesting the patterns than families repeat though they do not know them.

So many of my children are hurting or in flux right now and I am powerless to do anything about it save keep loving them and letting them know that it is unconditional.

I have a list of people I want to get into a car with a red and black aluminum baseball bat, drive to their house and beat into hamburger. I don't know that I would really feel better but I'm pretty sure that my children would be safer and the world would be a better place.

*sobbing*

S looks so much like me.

Apparently rheumatoid problems and fibro run in my family. I never knew.

Nite folks. I'm for sleep. Can't brain any longer.