On day three of the new paradigm...

I went grocery shopping and bought a package from groupon that is designed to kick my ass.

Tonight I start they new year rebuilding muscle and making my self image out to be what I want it to be. The car accident as resulting trauma have done their damage. It is time to take it back.

The grocery shopping is because that is something I can do for the household. I cannot diagnose electrical problems.

The new year dawned bright and cold and snowy. Just as it should be here. Now if only it would stay that way.

Food, health, and related

I finally got enough cumin in the chili. Its not a super huge batch so getting the proportions right has proved difficult.

Large stock pot is currently making turkey stock that is EE safe. I can always add onions in the final product if she's not going to be around but having something I can offer her when needed feels good. It smells amazing. I just hope it will be done by the time I need to leave. Something tells me that leaving the burner on after leaving the house is a bad plan.

Look Good Naked is a go. My first class is tonight. I have committed to go on Monday and Thursday evenings because EE has the office during class times. Tuesdays and Saturdays if I don't have clients. I am a little terrified. Probably suppressing the rest of the terrified. I'm scared I am going to wreck myself trying to get back to working shape. My brain knows I have done it before and can get there again but my brain weasels are reminding me how much pain I have been in and that this is only going to make that worse. Only in the short term if at all. I can do this. Honor limits, communicate boundaries, do it.