Bitchy post; gotta get it out of my system

Its some kind of terrible when a day with the sun behind the clouds can make me feel like the world is not a place I wanna be.

The house needs to be fixed, insulated, and painted. I'm hoping we get two out of three there. Trees need to be removed and I'm holding off planting things cause I don't want them to die when either of those things happen.

Thinking I need to change the accounts that several automatic transactions happen through. If I can just put it in there then I don't need to worry about it. I will maintain the amount necessary in that account and since it is not an account that either of us use we should be fine.

I'm tired. I think its been too many days with not quite enough sleep and working hard in the middle. I can tell it is effecting me. Probably making the lack of sunshine worse.

Dude... I'm in pain. I forgot that I get crabby and depressed when I'm in pain. I will go take pain killers now. I will also go tanning and have a nap before the Honey gets home. This will totally reframe my day such that I can have a lovely evening.

Strawberries and Honey

My 10th anniversary is today. 10 years married, 16 years together. I'm putting down my phone and walking away from everything else until tomorrow. Something tells me the world will cope without me for 12 hours.

Bridhe told me to put out strawberries and honey on my wedding day. I didn't know then why. "That would be telling," she said. After some work I discovered the hands that have been molding my life from the beginning. Aphrodite is more important to me than words can express. I was asked once why I called to her and the only answer I can come up with is that I don't, she calls me. She is in my life like my breath. There is no denying her.

10 years ago on a hot and sunny spring day in a beautiful rose garden I married my best friend in the presence of family and more friends. It wasn't a perfect day. It was perfect for us though. We made it through our own rite of passage. We promised to love each other and never hold the other back. We continue to take our own paths through life, wildly differing directions from one another, always managing to end up in the same place with the same solution. We aren't really romantic but we have true love.

People ask me how to find love. How to keep love. How howhow... Love is not a limiting thing. The more you love the more you can love. You want love to come into your life, start loving. Start with yourself and truly love yourself and then start truly loving others. The more you have, the more you get. It really does work. Give it a try.