physical state

In the past few days I have not taken my maintenance meds to see what my baseline is. My baseline is apparently sitting at needing to sleep most of the time. Pain is exhausting. Two weeks ago I could do three hours of massage in a row and not have negative physical or energy effects. Not so any longer. I need to get documents to my doctor and insurance company. It begins again. So tired.

Sadly, it would probably be better for me to not take the meds and actually honor those boundaries but my schedule and finances won't permit it. Always the balance between taking care of myself and getting the bills paid.

prayers needed

Ex-sister-in-law gave the kids back to Nate. Said she was done. He told her that she had to sign papers and set up regular visitation, that he was not going to allow the yo-yoing back and forth with ther lives. Somehow I doubt that Niece will stay with him but I do have hope. His house may not be perfect but its a damn sight more stable.

They need stability and the space to grow up as kids. I pray it is not too late for Niece.

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Feeling completely undeservng of the attention of one lovely person this eve. The question circling in my head is why do you think I'm worth the trouble. Better days than today I know the answer to that qestion. Doesn't invalidate the feeling now tho.

Firefly, space cowboys, "Curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal"

I should take my meds tomorrow.

Give me Wash anyday. Jayne is an ass and Mal doesn't take care of himself. I don't need a bad boy. I get them. But they don't really attract me. The honest easy to get along with ones are just not needed in drama, all the more for me in real life. Long live the Washs of the world.