So I was sick for Yule and the day of the solstice. I didn't get up to see the sun rise. I haven't felt the wheel turning this year as I usually do. Chaos has reigned in my life. Changes thrust upon me and situations not of my choosing have occupied my mind while more than my usual amount of work has occupied my body. I didn't get to spend much time shopping for loved ones with the Honey. The time I did get I was ill and exhausted.
Yesterday EE gave birth. I wasn't there physically to help her but I was there in spirit lending my energy to her where possible. I was spent and feeling ill long about the time she was done now that I think about the time-line. The holidays in KC are always hard on us but I felt extra tired by the time I got back to the house last night. I waited and waited until I was near tears with tired because of a silly lack of communication. I did cry at the pictures of the sunrise over the ocean that were posted online.
In spite of all my tired, I lay awake all night long. My girl keeping me company. I arose in the dark, showered myself clean, and welcomed the dawn. I'm still tired. I still need rest and a break in the worst way. But I feel better. I dunno, maybe I needed my own longest night.
Ever notice how people will talk about the dark of the moon but not the dark of the year?
Fire of water, hold me in your silken embrace. Warm me and hydrate me. Help my make my own path with passion and light the way through the dark waters.
Dawn, help me give hope and reassurance to children hurt by those that should care for them. Each new day bring new life and new choices. Return them to a place where they can heal and be children again. Eternal Beloved I ask this in your name because they deserve more than the hand they have been dealt thus far. Watch over them as they relearn the way of things and move forward in life.
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