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Tuesday ramblys
Apr. 29th, 2008 08:29 pmGmail is being stupid. It won't even open.
Sitting at home alone is very very rarely a good idea for Amy. I know it is some people's bread and butter but it is arsenic for my psyche. I went to the nonmonog group dinner at the Midtown Global Market. I managed to turn around a progressively more sour mood by hitting the socialize button. It worked. For this I am glad.
The root of this proto sour mood is something I do need to deal with. Being the ADD brain I am, it is *very* bad to change plans on me without checking in. Which I suppose does not mean that I need to be involved in decision making in all things that I am participating in, but it does mean that I need to be told what is going on. If it is something that I am asked to play a part in I would like to be asked. But to up and have my plans changed for me is disorienting. A disoriented Amy is a cranky Amy. I start feeling like it doesn't matter to anyone else if I am there, which sanely I will admit is not true(sanity plays little part in the chaos of my brain). Beyond this feeling though is a sense of organization that I have to have in my brain for it to continue functioning that is impaired if I am surprised or suddenly have my life shifted in ways I am not expecting. One would think that I should be able to go with the flow and roll with it right? Not so much. I have never been good at this. I need to know what is coming so I can plan my energy, and focus accordingly. It just doesn't work otherwise.
My bed is in the middle of the functional space of my house. Energetically this is a very interesting place for it to be. I can really feel the difference. The difference is hard to quantify but it is definitely there.
I should not play a gypsy at a small faire. Thinking back to the weekend, I did not unless specifically given permission without having asked for it, socialize with anyone that Talia(my gypsy persona) would not socialize with. I avoided royalty altogether, I hid from the guards, I was stunned and "scared" when people called me "Lady." I like the dress and demeanor of a gypsy, one gets to do many things not allowed in other roles. However I realized after leaving that I also did not get to talk with several of the people I wanted to talk to while there because they were in roles that Talia wouldn't connect with. This was not a deliberate choice. It simply came with putting on the clothes. So to all those I did not really get to talk with because you were in character as well, I am truly sorry and will make it up to you another time.
Thus promises to be an interesting trimester. I'm looking forward to my classes... and being done. Signed up today for a CEU class in clinical aromatherapy. Very cool stuff. I really hope that they get enough people to get the class off the ground. Special Populations promises to be amusing and informative. The professor has already told me that when we get to the section on fibro she's gonna let me teach it. :) I think she's mostly joking. 8am tomorrow brings Nutrition. I need to connect with the Johnnie at the Aliveness Project to see if I can get my internship hours there. They told me that it should be any problem at all but I haven't heard from them. I should probably just go by there tomorrow.
Really really glad I checked with my A&P prof today. I got my grade card in the mail and was surprised at seeing a 'B' in A&P. I knew my grade for the final and had thought I calculated everything else out correctly but was willing to accept it if that was in fact my grade. I caught him in the hall today and asked him if I could see the numbers that he had, that the way I calculated it I was surprised at my grade. He said that was no problem and to stop by during break as my class was about to start. When I did that he said that he has spent the last 1.5 hrs recalculating everyone's grade, mine was the only one that he had added wrong. It was about 20 pts off. I was right! I did have an A! He put in the right forms and sent them to the Dean to be signed. He said it probably wouldn't show up for weeks but it is on record as having been changed and it'll reflect that eventually.
I want to watch cartoons, but I have to be sitting in class in 11 hours. I think I should ready myself for bed instead.
Sitting at home alone is very very rarely a good idea for Amy. I know it is some people's bread and butter but it is arsenic for my psyche. I went to the nonmonog group dinner at the Midtown Global Market. I managed to turn around a progressively more sour mood by hitting the socialize button. It worked. For this I am glad.
The root of this proto sour mood is something I do need to deal with. Being the ADD brain I am, it is *very* bad to change plans on me without checking in. Which I suppose does not mean that I need to be involved in decision making in all things that I am participating in, but it does mean that I need to be told what is going on. If it is something that I am asked to play a part in I would like to be asked. But to up and have my plans changed for me is disorienting. A disoriented Amy is a cranky Amy. I start feeling like it doesn't matter to anyone else if I am there, which sanely I will admit is not true(sanity plays little part in the chaos of my brain). Beyond this feeling though is a sense of organization that I have to have in my brain for it to continue functioning that is impaired if I am surprised or suddenly have my life shifted in ways I am not expecting. One would think that I should be able to go with the flow and roll with it right? Not so much. I have never been good at this. I need to know what is coming so I can plan my energy, and focus accordingly. It just doesn't work otherwise.
My bed is in the middle of the functional space of my house. Energetically this is a very interesting place for it to be. I can really feel the difference. The difference is hard to quantify but it is definitely there.
I should not play a gypsy at a small faire. Thinking back to the weekend, I did not unless specifically given permission without having asked for it, socialize with anyone that Talia(my gypsy persona) would not socialize with. I avoided royalty altogether, I hid from the guards, I was stunned and "scared" when people called me "Lady." I like the dress and demeanor of a gypsy, one gets to do many things not allowed in other roles. However I realized after leaving that I also did not get to talk with several of the people I wanted to talk to while there because they were in roles that Talia wouldn't connect with. This was not a deliberate choice. It simply came with putting on the clothes. So to all those I did not really get to talk with because you were in character as well, I am truly sorry and will make it up to you another time.
Thus promises to be an interesting trimester. I'm looking forward to my classes... and being done. Signed up today for a CEU class in clinical aromatherapy. Very cool stuff. I really hope that they get enough people to get the class off the ground. Special Populations promises to be amusing and informative. The professor has already told me that when we get to the section on fibro she's gonna let me teach it. :) I think she's mostly joking. 8am tomorrow brings Nutrition. I need to connect with the Johnnie at the Aliveness Project to see if I can get my internship hours there. They told me that it should be any problem at all but I haven't heard from them. I should probably just go by there tomorrow.
Really really glad I checked with my A&P prof today. I got my grade card in the mail and was surprised at seeing a 'B' in A&P. I knew my grade for the final and had thought I calculated everything else out correctly but was willing to accept it if that was in fact my grade. I caught him in the hall today and asked him if I could see the numbers that he had, that the way I calculated it I was surprised at my grade. He said that was no problem and to stop by during break as my class was about to start. When I did that he said that he has spent the last 1.5 hrs recalculating everyone's grade, mine was the only one that he had added wrong. It was about 20 pts off. I was right! I did have an A! He put in the right forms and sent them to the Dean to be signed. He said it probably wouldn't show up for weeks but it is on record as having been changed and it'll reflect that eventually.
I want to watch cartoons, but I have to be sitting in class in 11 hours. I think I should ready myself for bed instead.
