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Interesting ponderings of the role of a student in the student teacher relationship and how the work of an Initiate manifests itself. I may actually pose a question about this to the B* LJ community.

*sigh* I get really tired of the hierarchy sometimes. I like the structure and the stability/communication language it *can* provide. However the hierarchy seems to be more and more ponderous the more I get to know it.

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Slept for shit. It seems that my mind has decided that I have things I need to think about and accomplish. Cannot do that while asleep. And so, a list;

-Ponder my role as an Initiate, both for Aphrodite and B*. Are they the same role? Are they compatible if they are not?
-Write my essay and turn in my application. Pray that I can still get into this fall's class.
-Firgure out what I need to do for each school to send transcripts.
-Fill water bottles
-Finish unpacking
-Do laundry

That is a more than sufficient list for the day. It will not be accomplished in this order. The single most important one is the finishing the application. That is not what my brain is musing on however. I think I will get something to eat and meander to a coffee shop to write. After the unpacking and filling. Can't forget to eat.

and then life happened...

( the saga of the past week and a half- part 1 )

from Her heart to His

To my amazement you saw me. We two are alike as we are opposites. You too are regarded only by your appearance. No one would have thought you would look deeper in me to find something other than the shallows. I may be affectionate and loving but you are right, I do not love easily or freely. I easily and freely give my love to you, my love. You let me be me, without limits. I can be in the moment with others and enjoy my time there knowing you are my anchor and my balance.

You, the most connected to me of all my loves, are my freedom and my security. I can trust in you for things that I can trust in no one else. You alone are not afraid of the depths of the love I have to offer. You alone simply accept me as I am. We push each other, encourage each other and motivate each other to grow in ways neither would have thought possible. Oh, the things that would not be possible without you. Let them talk, and laugh, and think what they will. You are secure in yourself and in our love. That is all that matters.

The fear you lack gives me strength to give more love to others who may fear it. You give me support when others turn away from that love they want and need so badly that they run from it. You stood still in the face of that need, surrounded by love and let it into your life, accepting the changes that it would bring. That you put up with the distractions from work which is your life amazes me still. You put your passion into you crafting and still you are devoted to me. As I am to you. You are wonder and amazement to me.

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yes folks it is that time of year again. The time when Amy is much more functional after dark. The time of year when it's hot enough outside during the day that she needs to be one of three things; underground, underwater, or asleep.

*sigh* If I could manage the underwater more often that would be lovely. Do you think you can manage that universe?