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Daily Log; Monday, May 21, 2007
Slow day in my head thus far. Been here an hour and a half and it feels like three. Never a good sign. Woke up dreaming about clients here in the office needing something from me. Needless to say I did not really sleep well. The Honey says he did not sleep well either. He was over-warm.
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Stood up to the Dr this am. I told him something several weeks ago and he didn’t remember or wasn’t paying attention. He flat out said I had not told him. I stood my ground to him and said, “Yes, I did.” He was not happy. He now feels a little off. I hope he evens out today… And now? I get to give him bad news… *sigh*
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I take breaks in the day. Around 9:30 and 1:30 I try to remember to eat something small. I know that when I no longer work here I am going to establish some sort of schedule so I don’t ruin all the good habits I have learned here. I remembered to make my tea and juice concoction, forgot to get things to bring for lunch. Its always something.
Another habit I need to maintain is regular walks. I know they have been helping me keep the brain and body on a more even keel.
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I really do wish the best to Dr and his practice. I had a realization today. He has had expectations of me that I could not meet due to lack of training. I had expectation of training that was never met. We never did meet on the same level. In many ways I had to guess what his expectations were cause he’s not particularly good at communicating them. I quit trying to communicate my questions and my need for training because answers were never forthcoming. This increased my frustration level and probably his.
I can’t really say that this relationship was doomed from the start. I can say that it could have been managed much better than it has been. I can also say that while this has been a very good place for me to grow and learn, I have outgrown it. That is a freeing thing to be able to say. I have probably stayed past the time to leave in an attempt to have things work out financially. That is my bad, not the Dr’s.
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Oh so tired. I think I have accomplished things today. It may just be that I have walked in a lot of circles figuratively speaking, with regards to my job
Slow day in my head thus far. Been here an hour and a half and it feels like three. Never a good sign. Woke up dreaming about clients here in the office needing something from me. Needless to say I did not really sleep well. The Honey says he did not sleep well either. He was over-warm.
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Stood up to the Dr this am. I told him something several weeks ago and he didn’t remember or wasn’t paying attention. He flat out said I had not told him. I stood my ground to him and said, “Yes, I did.” He was not happy. He now feels a little off. I hope he evens out today… And now? I get to give him bad news… *sigh*
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I take breaks in the day. Around 9:30 and 1:30 I try to remember to eat something small. I know that when I no longer work here I am going to establish some sort of schedule so I don’t ruin all the good habits I have learned here. I remembered to make my tea and juice concoction, forgot to get things to bring for lunch. Its always something.
Another habit I need to maintain is regular walks. I know they have been helping me keep the brain and body on a more even keel.
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I really do wish the best to Dr and his practice. I had a realization today. He has had expectations of me that I could not meet due to lack of training. I had expectation of training that was never met. We never did meet on the same level. In many ways I had to guess what his expectations were cause he’s not particularly good at communicating them. I quit trying to communicate my questions and my need for training because answers were never forthcoming. This increased my frustration level and probably his.
I can’t really say that this relationship was doomed from the start. I can say that it could have been managed much better than it has been. I can also say that while this has been a very good place for me to grow and learn, I have outgrown it. That is a freeing thing to be able to say. I have probably stayed past the time to leave in an attempt to have things work out financially. That is my bad, not the Dr’s.
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Oh so tired. I think I have accomplished things today. It may just be that I have walked in a lot of circles figuratively speaking, with regards to my job