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Oct. 12th, 2005 08:27 amExample, be and example She says to me. Embody all the things of love that most hide.
Well, its rather uncomfortable to be an example. It sets you appart as different. Its designed to be looked at and examined. For those who don't want to see what it has to offer with its difference, it is ignored, pushed away. In fear, in contempt, in revulsion.
Basically I have been asked to embody Change. Most do not like change. Some are better at dealing with change than others but few really like change.
Be open with the things that others hide. That means being open and honest with everyone about who you are, what you stand for, how you accomplish this, and surviving when you are shunned for all the above. Reaching out to others when they don't want it, knowing that they don't want it, but having to because they asked it or because you must to be who you are. What would you do if you could taste their fear/revulsion/dislike and still have to go on.
"You are so strong." She said to me the very first time we spoke. I have the strength to do what needs doing. I'm just tired of not being reached out to. I am tired of being feared. I am tired of being intimidating. I am tired of being blamed. I am tired of being the only one who is honest.
So this is my weekend away. I will try and get untired for a little while. I will be with people who will reach out to me, some at least.
I understand that it is uncomfortable to be near me sometimes. I am bright and shiny by choice. I have been the other side of that coin and not enjoyed it. But the light reflects and it can be hard if you don't like who you are yet.
Well, its rather uncomfortable to be an example. It sets you appart as different. Its designed to be looked at and examined. For those who don't want to see what it has to offer with its difference, it is ignored, pushed away. In fear, in contempt, in revulsion.
Basically I have been asked to embody Change. Most do not like change. Some are better at dealing with change than others but few really like change.
Be open with the things that others hide. That means being open and honest with everyone about who you are, what you stand for, how you accomplish this, and surviving when you are shunned for all the above. Reaching out to others when they don't want it, knowing that they don't want it, but having to because they asked it or because you must to be who you are. What would you do if you could taste their fear/revulsion/dislike and still have to go on.
"You are so strong." She said to me the very first time we spoke. I have the strength to do what needs doing. I'm just tired of not being reached out to. I am tired of being feared. I am tired of being intimidating. I am tired of being blamed. I am tired of being the only one who is honest.
So this is my weekend away. I will try and get untired for a little while. I will be with people who will reach out to me, some at least.
I understand that it is uncomfortable to be near me sometimes. I am bright and shiny by choice. I have been the other side of that coin and not enjoyed it. But the light reflects and it can be hard if you don't like who you are yet.
