I was reminded today of the Rodney Atkins song "If You're Going Through Hell" It was a good song to listen to today.
Last night was the first truly bad night Kitty Cat has had in a while. I'm not sure any of us slept more than 45 minutes in a stretch. 'Cept Torby of course. I think I am going to have to put a serious limit to travel for the foreseeable future. I know she gets stressed when I'm gone and that translates to the physical. Her limp has been a lot worse the past couple of weeks. Ooo, brb.
Just remembered that a couple of weeks ago the Honey turned off her hot spot on the principal that its pretty hot out right now. We like it cool to sleep though. I turned it back on. Maybe it will help her out.
Every time she gets to the point where she's needing more help and hating that she does, I remember hearing, "You treat that cat better than some people treat their children." I know it was meant with awe and as a compliment. I also know that in many cases here in the US of A domesticated pets receive better care and food choices than the humans here. I know that many people will take care of their pets when they will not take care of themselves. I'm not that, those, whatever. I will make sacrifices for her though.
She's taken care of me for a long long time. I've had her almost 14 years. She's a rescue so she's older than that. Four people in my life have lots their beloved companions in the past month. I was convinced I would lose her last year. Every single day has been a gift and I have tried to treat it as such. Giving her back all the lovins and pettins that she will accept, making sure that all her needs are supplied, keeping her company when she's not doing well, and in general just being there for her like she is for me.
I still look in on her and make sure she is still breathing. I know that one day I will check and she won't be anymore. That will be a new beginning. I will be heartbroken. Inconsolable. I think I am about as prepared to deal with that grief as one can be. And deal with it I will. I will process through it and grow because of it and then move on knowing she is always a part of me.
I love my girl.