Aw sweetie... I feel for you. I am so sorry you are hurting like this. Love is supposed to be grand and conquer all, right? It hard sometimes not to be confused when we have loved so hard and tried and work, to find it still isn't enough. The best thing I can say is to take some time off. Give yourself permission to have distance, to get used to the absence without having to face a renewal of wounds on a regular basis. Allow yourself to cry, to mourn its passing. If you are around that person, give yourself permission to go, to leave the situation if it becomes too much. And above all else, keep accepting the loving support of those that love you. Only time will make it better, so fill your time with people you love and things you enjoy. Remind yourself that even though you hurt, there are things you love about life, things to find joy in. {{{{{hypatia}}}}}