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No Honey, I did not go directly to bed. Its ok.

Sitting here reading journals et al and realizing the day I had yesterday compared to the day I had today. 180 degrees difference. Yesterday I was in an airplane or airport for 12 hours. I was in a lot of pain physically and emotionally. I was really really down on myself for the things that I have allowed to happen to me as an adult.

Arrogance will make you think you have control over something you do not. I will remember this. I will also remember to not blame myself for things I do not have control over. I will not take responsibility for things that are not mine.

I have noticed a serious connection between my pain levels and how I view myself. If I am in pain I am far more likely to be emotionally bad for me. Noted.

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Portland is awesomely cute. I am enjoying myself here. The freedom reminds me of my time in Paris. I have a transit pass for a week and can go anywhere I please. I don't have anyone hanging on me and my agenda is my own. Architecture is interesting. I think I wanna take the camera over to downtown and find out what I see thru it.

One odd thing in this city that declares itself weird. I was described as eccentric by a local. The same person also remarked on my lack of make-up. No clue what that was about. No really. It has to be something more than going to stand in line before I am willing to the effort of make-up. I relaced my boots! What more do they expect of me?!?