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In the dark
mostly cause its dark outside and its dark inside and the Honey needs to be able to stay asleep even if I can't.
Went to a birthday party at GB Leighton's Pickle Park this evening for J. Most of the crew from the Seamstress' Guild that I have gotten to know at cons were there. I like getting to know them better.
Listened to a song that![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
dawningday posted for his nephew and started thinking about my niece and nephew that I cannot know. Thinking about the Honey's niece and nephews who are in such a hard place right now and will continue to be. Thinking about R and everything that entails. I was crying too. Thank you dear for sharing.
Pondering my upcoming trip to KC and all the things I need to do that weekend. Mostly centered around a family wedding in Columbia this time around. EE rightly pointed out that his family seems to do a lot of weddings over holiday weekends. Friday I will be spending time with my mom and sis in the eve, hopefully bro too. Gonna seerowangolightly during the day and brain storm on things. Likely meet up with berkie at some point cause we *have* to go to Lawrence to get our rings cleaned. Sat is driving to Columbia meeting up with amandajayne98, going to a wedding, and then crashing at amandajayne98's place. Drive back to KC on Sunday and then plans get a little fuzzy. They may have to stay that way. I might be completely whacked at that point. Wanna see S before he wanders off the grid. Not sure how to manage that with his schedule. It'll work out.
My second is coming up. I feel more nervous about this one than any other. I know that there is no way to take back an RoP and I feel that I am about as ready and prepared for it as I can be but no one is ever completely prepared for something that is designed to change your life. Maybe I was a little more arrogant in the last ones. I've been hurt pretty badly and had to make some hard choices to get to where I am. Maybe that's it and I am simply feeling the scars wondering what is coming down the pipe. roll with it and accept the changes, breathe and take time for yourself, communicate honestly, take responsibility for what is yours, release stagnation Yes mother. I can do these things.
I discovered today that you really do get what you ask for. It may not always be what you were expecting and it more often comes in the form of exactly what you need in what you asked for. The form is often unexpected I guess is what I am saying.
The Girl continues to be the Girl. She had a chiro appt on Tuesday. Really does not like them but she seems to move better after going once she gets over the trauma of getting adjusted. She certainly is more snotty/full of attitude afterwards.
Custody battles continue to rage around me. Wish there was anything I could do to help the children involved. We are already doing everything we can do to help the Honey's brother out. Well, save kidnapping the kids and sending them to live with unnamed relatives in a non-extradition country, there are none of those btw. I've gotten pretty good at dealing with this helpless feeling over the years. Lossa practice I guess.
Life continues to be pretty darn awesome. It seems petty and small to complain about not getting enough pettins when I have been just as busy and unavailable as everyone else. And we are back to the harem idea. *eyeroll* Feels a bit like the "step one: win the lottery" kind of plans. But there should totally be people around who are able to pet me at the drop of a hat. My cat has this! Hmm, mebbe I need staff.
Lovely, I think I can do the thing that I have been avoiding. Have a beautiful Friday peeps.
Went to a birthday party at GB Leighton's Pickle Park this evening for J. Most of the crew from the Seamstress' Guild that I have gotten to know at cons were there. I like getting to know them better.
Listened to a song that
dawningday posted for his nephew and started thinking about my niece and nephew that I cannot know. Thinking about the Honey's niece and nephews who are in such a hard place right now and will continue to be. Thinking about R and everything that entails. I was crying too. Thank you dear for sharing.Pondering my upcoming trip to KC and all the things I need to do that weekend. Mostly centered around a family wedding in Columbia this time around. EE rightly pointed out that his family seems to do a lot of weddings over holiday weekends. Friday I will be spending time with my mom and sis in the eve, hopefully bro too. Gonna see
rowangolightly during the day and brain storm on things. Likely meet up with berkie at some point cause we *have* to go to Lawrence to get our rings cleaned. Sat is driving to Columbia meeting up with amandajayne98, going to a wedding, and then crashing at amandajayne98's place. Drive back to KC on Sunday and then plans get a little fuzzy. They may have to stay that way. I might be completely whacked at that point. Wanna see S before he wanders off the grid. Not sure how to manage that with his schedule. It'll work out.My second is coming up. I feel more nervous about this one than any other. I know that there is no way to take back an RoP and I feel that I am about as ready and prepared for it as I can be but no one is ever completely prepared for something that is designed to change your life. Maybe I was a little more arrogant in the last ones. I've been hurt pretty badly and had to make some hard choices to get to where I am. Maybe that's it and I am simply feeling the scars wondering what is coming down the pipe. roll with it and accept the changes, breathe and take time for yourself, communicate honestly, take responsibility for what is yours, release stagnation Yes mother. I can do these things.
I discovered today that you really do get what you ask for. It may not always be what you were expecting and it more often comes in the form of exactly what you need in what you asked for. The form is often unexpected I guess is what I am saying.
The Girl continues to be the Girl. She had a chiro appt on Tuesday. Really does not like them but she seems to move better after going once she gets over the trauma of getting adjusted. She certainly is more snotty/full of attitude afterwards.
Custody battles continue to rage around me. Wish there was anything I could do to help the children involved. We are already doing everything we can do to help the Honey's brother out. Well, save kidnapping the kids and sending them to live with unnamed relatives in a non-extradition country, there are none of those btw. I've gotten pretty good at dealing with this helpless feeling over the years. Lossa practice I guess.
Life continues to be pretty darn awesome. It seems petty and small to complain about not getting enough pettins when I have been just as busy and unavailable as everyone else. And we are back to the harem idea. *eyeroll* Feels a bit like the "step one: win the lottery" kind of plans. But there should totally be people around who are able to pet me at the drop of a hat. My cat has this! Hmm, mebbe I need staff.
Lovely, I think I can do the thing that I have been avoiding. Have a beautiful Friday peeps.