sickness update

I no longer feel like I have been hit by a Mac truck. I do kinda feel like someone tried to Rot-Rooter my throat though. Haven't had a fever since Sat night. Still really low on energy. Got someone to switch clinic shifts with me. Hoping to get a ticket to a sauna today.

Dear Universe

Just a note from me. I know you think I am strong. I don't even disagree with you. I know you like to test my strength. Just want you to know I've hit my limit and you need to knock it off for a while. This latest fun of not being able to see the Honey at all during the last two weeks of my semester really sucks. But the whole getting sick for the one week he's gonna be home and have to spend time with *me* before leaving for that two and a half week stretch is breaking me.

Its not just the one thing really. Its the combination of everything all at once. I can't actually remember the last time I was in circle. My emotional needs are too much to ask one person to handle. I regularly encourage the Honey to go out and take care of himself. He needs that. He can't be healthy without it. School is really ramping up. Towards the end of this tri is gonna be intense. Next tri is gonna hit the ground running if I don't miss my guess.

I'm tired. I'm scared. My needs are not being met. I feel like I have hit my limit for options. I'm open for suggestions. I'll even sit and listen for a while.

~Me