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I apparently need to go see an MD. This displeases me. I feel like I have done something wrong. Logically speaking I have. I had too much bodywork for my body to come back from in such a short time period. Instead of making things better it made them worse. This is so effin hard. The balance is something I need and yet I don't know how to balance this system. Not just because I don't know it yet, but also because it keeps changing.

I'm tired but not sleepy. Can't breath well enough to relax and sleep anyway. I may drug myself into sleep tonight. Nyquil is my friend.

They told me to sweat it out. I can't seem to do that. I can't get warm enough to actually sweat. I am wrapped in so many layers you'd never know it was me. I'm not cold in all this. But I am not hot either. I ought to be seriously overheated and I'm not. This is worrisome.

tried to call work

I should not be allowed near a phone when I am sick. That is all.